जो लफ़्ज़ों में न हो पाए बयाँ

जाने क्यूँ वो पूछते हैं हमसे हाल-ए-दिल की दास्ताँ

बेबाक धड़कनों को सुन सको तो जानो

नज़रों का नूर नज़र आये तो जानो

वो जज़्बात ही क्या जो लफ़्ज़ों में हो पाएँ बयाँ


जो ख्व़ाब का हिस्सा हो

जो तसव्वुर का किस्सा हो

वो जो हकीक़त बन जाए तो जानो

वो जुनूँ ही क्या जो लफ़्ज़ों में हो पाए बयाँ


जो अश्कों की हो रही हो बरसात

भीगी पलकों की ख़ुशी समझ सको तो जानो

अधूरे से अल्फाज़, अनकही सी बात

महसूस कर सको तो जानो

वो ग़म, वो ख़ुशी ही क्या जो लफ़्ज़ों में हो पाए बयाँ


जुज़्व-ए-ज़िन्दगी हैं वो पल जो हँसा के जाते हैं

जुज़्व-ए-ज़िन्दगी हैं वो पल जो रुला के जाते हैं

न जाने कितनी मरतबा ये मोड़ आते हैं

न जाने कितने शक़्स आते हैं जाते हैं

ज़हन-ओ-दिल पे मग़र बस कुछ लम्हे छा जाते हैं

वो लम्हे, वो एहसास , वो जूनून, वो सुकून-ओ-सबात

वो हर एक जज़्बात

जो लफ़्ज़ों में न हो पाए बयाँ


This poem is dedicated to all those moments that render us speechless, when the plethora of emotions, the nostalgia, the surreal feeling intoxicates us!
Life is perhaps a summation of all these turning points- those unforgettable moments, when you could not find any words to express yourself !!

Being speechless is an amazing experience, always !!

Feels great to be back to Urdu :)

Next Blog soon !!

Cheers!!!



 

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Itti si Hansi.. Itti si Khushi

"Itti si hasi, itti si khushi, itta sa tukda chaand ka"
If I say that I'm crazy about this song, it would be an understatement.. I could not let the lyrics off my mind for a month..The reason why I love the song so much is that it reminds me of those small joys of life, those little things that make us smile, that remain unnoticed by us, most of the time, that make us feel that we really don't need big reasons to feel that life is beautiful, all we need is happy moments with small yet great sources of happiness!

Who doesn't feel happy when India wins a match? CWC 2011 wasn't less than a festival for the whole country and the celebration continued for weeks!
Think of those moments when you think of some good old moments and start smiling, when you are with your friends and even the simplest of conversations make you laugh out loud! Don't you feel happy when someone does something just to give you a sweet surprise, just to make you feel special?
For a crazy music lover like me, sometimes, even a song is more than enough to make me happy, to get me high! I keep singing, whistling n humming all the time, and I always have a broad smile on my face, whenever a song is on my mind.
First rain showers of the season..playing with a baby and watching him or her smile at you, holding your finger..receiving naughty, romantic texts from someone and blushing..finding money in pockets of an old shirt or getting free gift vouchers..receiving compliments or listening to simple words of appreciation or praise from people around you, unexpectedly!

I can go on and on with this random list..As the song goes, "dabe dabe paon se, aaye haule haule zindagi", you never know when life would come up with something or someone who makes you smile, you just need to cherish all those moments, the presence of all those people! And, therefore, I respect all festivals and special occasions, birthdays and anniversaries!

Almost all of us must have received "This Diwali, spread happiness" messages from our friends today.. All of us must have exchanged gifts, sweets, chocolates, what not! No other festival comes up with such extravagant expenditure like Diwali does..But, while we spend thousands buying sweets and dry fruits that actually go wasted, while we spend money for crackers that give us nothing more than noise and pollution, there are kids who beg for some food outside the same temples where we go to light candles and diyas..While we decorate our houses, while we get dressed in the best of our traditional clothes, there are rag pickers who wear torn clothes and search for food in garbage..

They say, the best source of happiness is to see a smiling face and know that you are the reason behind the smile! Why don't we celebrate this Diwali trying to give "Itti si hansi.. itti si khushi" to all these kids! While we keep spending money for crackers and sweets and clothes every year, why can't we buy toys and chocolates for kids? Trust me, nothing else can be a better way to celebrate the festival..

From the past half an hour, this blog post was a source of happiness for me! And, I have decided that when I'll go out to a gurudwara or a temple to light candles, I would definitely buy sweets and chocolates for kids there!
For the best way to find "itti si hansi.. itti si khushi" for yourself, is to give the same to someone who really needs it!

A very happy Diwali to all readers! Stay safe, stay happy!

Cheers!!

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Still Blaming Your Life n Luck??

Before I commence with the post, let me share a quote..

"Happy moments, praise God.. Difficult moments, seek God.. Quiet moments, worship God.. Painful moments, trust God..Every Moment, Thank God.."
This is a very popular quote, with around 300k likes on facebook..You all might say that you like it, but then, ask yourself, why do we blame our life and luck for every small thing that goes wrong? Even if you are an atheist, even if you think that the entire concept of the existence of God is pointless and illogical, simply ask yourself,  "Am I not lucky? Why shouldn't I thank goodness, thank my stars for being happy? And if you do not believe in destiny or luck, if you believe in karma, why do you conclude that your life isn't good when things don't go your way?"

I had written a 55 fiction blog with the same title once, and a discussion about "people with mental and physical disabilities" made me feel that I am not only lucky, I am blessed, blessed with life and liveliness, and here is a list of reasons why I feel so :

• While I can enjoy the luxury of sitting in an air-conditioned room and writing a blog, there are many kids who would never be able to read or write, not because they are underprivileged, but because they cannot even sit or talk or listen, because they were born with an incurable physical deformity..

• While I admire nature and its beauty, while I enjoy looking at the moon, the sky, the rains, there are hundreds of blind men and women, who cannot experience the same..

• While we all talk of women and their rights, there are some mentally challenged girls who are molested, raped by their own relatives and unfortunately, in cases where they become pregnant, they are blamed and disowned by the families..They are thrown into mental hospitals and shelter homes so that they can survive somehow and those inhuman criminals who abused them continue to live freely..

• While we crib about breakups, lost friendships and misunderstandings, there are many kids who need artificial limbs to survive, people who look really ugly or unusual because of horrible, rare diseases and as far as the mentally sick kids are concerned, they are actually treated as a threat, as a danger, people feel afraid of them..Observe how their mothers cry looking at their faces, and you'll realize, being a normal kid is being lucky in itself..

• While I write blogs/read novels/watch movies about life and philosophy, there are hundreds for whom, surviving itself is a struggle..hundreds who are going through a lifeless life, in such a critical state that their own family members pray for their death..Imagining what they go through, scares the hell out of me..

And when you read this blog, please don't feel pity for all these people..People with physical or mental disabilities need your love, care, affection and support..You need not sympathize, but you ought to empathize..The next time you see a pregnant teenager, for God's sake do not call her a slut, she could be a rape victim..The next time you see a child with a disability, instead of feeling pity for him, feeling scared or sad, go and play with him, or simply give him/her a hug!

I have decided that I will celebrate every special occasion of my life, every festival distributing sweets and toys to kids in orphanages and asylums.. Mind you, this is not social service, this is for my own contentment..Believe me when I say this, the biggest source of happiness is to know that you are the reason behind someone's smiles..

Now, the main purpose of writing this blog is to make myself and others realize that no matter how tough situations may be, at every point of time, we ought to know that self-pity is absolutely useless and cursing our life or luck solves no purpose other than making us weaker..Here goes a second list, a list of people who can always inspire you :

• Nick Vujicic, the famous preacher and motivational speaker who was born with no legs and no arms wrote a book called "Life Without Limits".. He is an inspiration for millions today, I actually wanted to write a complete blog about him..these words by him, say it all, “I believe in a God who can do all things, but if He chooses not to give me arms and legs, I know it's for the better. And I may not understand it, but all I need to know is that He's going to carry me through, that there is a purpose for it.”

• Sudha Chandran, Natalia Patryka, Helen Keller, Stephen Hawking.. these names do not need any introduction, even they had an obstacle of a deformity, a disability..yet they achieved what people with perfect health aren't able to..

• A blind girl works at my dad's office..She is a great singer, so lively, so bubbly, so sanguine that its almost unbelievable for everyone..All of us meet such people, you may feel pity for the hardships they face, you may feel inspired by their spirit, choice is yours !!

And to sum up, this is what the year 2012 has taught me, sharing an old status update here :

Above sadness and happiness, there exists a virtue of goodness, governed by acceptance and patience..People walk away because whenever someone leaves, someone else is about to arrive..You feel hurt so that you can learn to let go, people do not put in efforts to get you back so that you can experience that your life is equally beautiful without them..You fail to crack an exam because someone else had worked harder than you, and if you had actually struggled, you would get more than what you expect,in some way or the other,unexpectedly..Your family members face serious health problems so that you can realize the importance of faith in God..No matter what you go through, you are definitely doing better than many others, and therefore, there must be no space for self-pity in your life..After every tough phase, you would see how perfectly and beautifully life moves on.. And there's one n only one style that's perfect, that style is to smile, to smile and be thankful to God, to your parents, to everyone who ever made you smile, to smile and live every moment to the fullest, to smile and celebrate life!

Cheers !!

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Dude, GET A LIFE !!

Its Valentines Day, love is in the air.. People who are in a relationship are happy because they get a chance to celebrate, gift shop owners are happy because they can sell bouquets worth 500 bucks for 5000..But there are some people (read : some guys) who are frustrated and devastated, who feel dejected, gloomy and melancholic.. I dedicate this post to the same very same psychos.. Re-read the title, Dude, GET A LIFE !!

Before I start writing, here is a list of reasons why I'm writing about them :

1. All sick and desperate guys are posting hopelessly boring status updates on facebook, that talk of their frustration, that talk of the fact that they're single..
2. I've been receiving irritating messages by donkeys (Donkeys, according to my blog, GUYS cLASSified), .. Most of them asked the typical questions, "When are you free?", "When can we meet?", "Do you have a boyfriend?" But, one of them actually asked, "Valentines day pe single ladkiyan bhi peeti hain kya..hum log toh devdas ban hi chuke hain..".I mean, how should one react to such sick statements for God's sake!
3. Most of the male students from co-ed engineering colleges keep cribbing about the pathetic sex ratio in their colleges..Some of them also claim that this promotes homosexuality.. Well, they can expect empathy, yes, I can empathize..but why the hell should we sympathize? Recently, I read a blog by a student from IIT Kharagpur, which was written as an appeal to boycott Valentines day, just because it happens to be the reason behind the uncontrollable and incurable depression among students ! People might find it funny, I myself feel that he is a great writer, but the very idea behind his post is the root cause of the way I'm writing this post right now..

Had these guys been like normal and sensible human beings, 14th February would have been just another Tuesday for me, and I would have never written a complete blog about the same..Well, I ask myself, why should I give a shit to the tharkis and the despos? Its simply because, I feel pity.. I pity every other person who cares for them being a friend..

As I say, people, nowadays, have forgotten the meaning of love, forgotten the meaning of relationships, leave alone love..Both guys and girls want a relationship in their life, just for the sake of being committed.. Some guys want a girl in their life, just because they wish to say, "Yes, I have a girlfriend too".. Guys who are blessed to have true girls with them, prefer to be with the so-called better girls (read : hotter and more popular girls), so that they can experience the joy of getting a hunk's title, so that they can make other guys feel envious of them..

Before you start assuming things about me and start forming opinions, let me make things clear.. No, I do NOT hate men..No, I do NOT even hate the desperate guys..Its just that I want some male members of the society to realize that their desperation might just be the initial phase of becoming a frustrated psycho..Period.

If you say that you wish to experience the magic, the beauty, the feeling of being in love, if you wish to experience how awesome it feels when a girl is all yours,..Yes, I can empathize.. But, if you think that guys who hang out with hotter chicks are studs, if you think that your life is fucked up because you don't have a girlfriend.. if you suffer from an "inferiority complex" because you're single..Dude, GET A LIFE !

You might say that a girl can never relate to what a guy goes through, simply because, she cannot realize that a guy's image is dependent on what his relationship status is, on how hot or how cool his girl is.. She cannot realize that each guy is surrounded by similar guys and there is something called peer pressure.. She cannot realize what a guy's life is, because she never faces the hardships involved in 'being a guy'..You might say that, we cannot help it, its testosterone..
All I have to say is that, sensible guys do exist too.. If you think that the above lines hold true, let me tell you, you aren't one of them..

If you're lonely, and you wish to find a person to get rid of the loneliness, and when your search for that person who can 'fill the emptiness' is over, you call it love..No, its not love in the first place..Desperation, frustration, craving for a relationship can never make you feel what true love is..Love will happen when it has to happen to you..
Happiness is a state of mind..So is sadness..The smallest of the things can make you happy, right from a century by your favorite cricketer to watching a nice movie.. But happiness, surely, does not depend upon your relationship status..One feels depressed when one is hurt or betrayed, for we are human beings..But, love and relationships are all about destiny..When destiny has it in store for you, you will be blessed with someone who loves you, someone who truly wishes for your happiness, someone who puts in efforts for your smile..You ought to live your life the way it comes to you..

For all those who still think that their life is screwed up, because they're single, for all those who still can't understand that being single is a hundred times better than being with a wrong person..Once again, I repeat, I know a small blog can never inculcate conscience in a loser.. Dude, GET A LIFE !

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मुस्कुरा के जी ले तू..

न  मंज़िल  की  तलाश  कर,

न  मोड़  का  खौफ  रख,

दिल  तो  तेरा  आवारा  है

आवारा  ही  रहेगा..

बेपरवाह  बेफिक्र  मुसाफिर,

रस्ते  गलियों  पे  चल  दे  तू..

सफ़र  में  जो  न  बन  सके  हमसफ़र  तेरे,

उनकी  यादों  के  साथ,

सफ़र  अपना  मुक़म्मल  कर  ले  तू..

कि  आखिर  जिंदगानी  है  इक  कारवाँ

मुसाफिर  आते  हैं , मुसाफिर  जाते  हैं..

जो  न  रहे  जुज़्व-ए-ज़िन्दगी,

उनकी  ग़म-ए-जुदाई  में  तन्हाई  क्या..

मदहोशी  में  खुद  को  भुला  कर,

इक  बार  नशे  में  बह  जा  तू,

मिल  के  बिछड़ना  तो  है  दुनिया  का  दस्तूर,

हर  रूह  है  बेचैन , हर  शख्स  है  मजबूर,

एक  बार  कर  ले  जो  तू,

मजबूरियों  को  मंज़ूर,

एक  राहत  तेरे  दर  पे  दस्तक  देगी  तो  ज़रूर..

अहबाब  न  रहे  जो  तेरे  हयात  में,

तू  खुद  ही  खुद  का  हबीब  है,

महफ़िल  में  ख़ुशी  न  मिली,

तो  खल्वत  का  सुकून  ही  सही,

खुशियाँ  तेरी  मुख़्तसर  ही  सही,

मुस्कुरा  के  जी  ले  तू..

हर  खता  को  बक्श  दे,

बाशुक्रिया  हर  इनायत  को  कुबूल  कर,

पूरी  कायनात  तेरे  सदके  में  सर  झुकाएगी,

एक  बार  ये  ज़हमत  कर  ले  तू..

हर  शिकवे  को  भुला  कर,

मुस्कुरा  के  जी  ले  तू..

खुदा की  रहमत  होगी  तुझपे  जो,

इक  बार  इबादत  कर  ले  तू..

[This is just a random poem.. I had written it while travelling once.. I just re-read it today, and somehow, it made me smile.. sharing it with a hope that it would make all readers smile too !

I love Urdu !! ]

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Love Yourself !!

You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.

- Buddha

This is, perhaps, one of the most popular quotes I've ever read..The reason why I quoted this, before starting with the blog, is the fact that I always found it kinda obvious, something that goes without saying..Every individual does love himself..Why did Buddha have to preach that after all?

Mother Teresa had said, "There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread" .. Absolutely true, but we all talk of seeking love from others, loving others, caring for others, and we often tend to forget how important loving ourselves is..
How can you expect others to love you when you don't even love yourself? How can you even think of making someone happy when you aren't happy being the person you are? How can you love others when you cannot even love yourself? How can you think of achieving something when you keep on blaming your luck?

I have seen many people who tend to avoid the whole world when they are sad..They do not even talk to the closest of their friends who wish to listen to them and help them out.. No, they do not have any intentions to disrespect or ignore people who care for them..but it is the lack of "self-love" in them, that makes it difficult for them to accept love, care and affection by others..They feel guilty, they start despising themselves, they feel that they do not deserve all those who care so much for them, they start avoiding them again and the cycle continues..

Everyone says, "The first postulate of love is sacrifice" .. I disagree.. The first postulate of love is "acceptance"... You cannot love a person unless you accept him for who he really is.. If you keep on searching for perfection, if you keep on searching for qualities, you won't ever find true love..
In the same way, you can't love yourself unless you accept yourself as a person..We often feel jealous of others..We often wish to be popular, we often seek attention..Many of us suffer from inferiority complex.. And sometimes, while trying to impress others, we stop being who we are, we tend to change ourselves, not because we want those changes, but because we think of becoming a more lovable and likable person in someone else's eyes.. Once again, we forget self-acceptance, self-love and self-respect !

I always say that I believe that I am an awesome person and I love myself the way I am.. A friend had once said to me, "Saying that 'I'm crazy, I'm awesome' again and again does not mean that you are happy..It rather means that you are so hollow a person that you are filling it on your own in a futile attempt to be happier"

For all those people who feel that his words hold true, I wish to say that saying that I'm awesome does not mean that I feel I'm a perfect person..There are endless flaws in me..I know that I act hopelessly dumb at times, I am brutally blunt, honest and straightforward and often speak without thinking.. I have that irritating habit of getting into the minutest details of every damn topic while I talk.. I apologize much more than what is actually required..In spite of being an intelligent and sensible person, I am extremely crazy and childish..

But,I say that I'm an awesome human being, for I am a true person, I say whatever I feel is true, I portray whatever I genuinely am.. If at all I happen to care for a person, I would give my best shot to cheer him up, I would do anything it takes to make a close friend happy.. I value each and every person who has been good to me..I have been really great a person to a lot of self-obsessed and frustrated people and my care for them was rarely reciprocated, I don't give a damn to

them..in fact, I still have faith in friendship, relationships, people and destiny..
Saying that you are awesome does not necessarily mean that you are doing so in an attempt to be happy.. Yes, believing that you are amazing, pampering yourself, flattering yourself can act as stress busters for sure... But, accepting yourself is the first step towards self-love.. Self-love does not always make you happy, for there are things that aren't there in your hands, but it always gives you strength.. It helps you to make sure that you do not become a pessimist, that you do not try to escape and that you do not waste your time being sad for people who are not worth your tears!!

Learn to love yourself, for you are the only person who will always be there for you, throughout the journey of your life.. Self-love is a life-long romance !!

Love yourself, you will fall in love with your life and the world will fall in love with you !!

This blog is dedicated to three guys :-
1. A fellow blogger, a complete stranger and the one n only person I ever talked to online, for he made me recall things about destiny and life that I had temporarily forgotten.. Sincere thanks to him..
2. Someone who has been a close best friend, for the past fourteen years, who always makes me feel how special I am, who is, perhaps, my greatest admirer ever !!

3. A guy who was had been one of the best friends I ever had, though, all of a sudden, he stopped loving himself for some reasons unknown to me..I wish people like him stop despising themselves and learn n realize things I wish to convey to them..

P.S.

Main apni favorite hoon !!

A dialogue from my favorite movie.. this blog was incomplete without the same !!

Cheers !!

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ZENDAGI MIGZARA (Life Goes On) - Part 2

[As I say, the best words by Khaled Hosseini after 'For you, a thousand times over' are 'Zendagi Migzara' (Life Goes On)..
The last time when I had written a blog with the same title, it was meant for people who think way too much about the future, with fear in their minds and hearts..This post, talks about different situations, that are faced by many, but it comes up with the same message, the most beautiful thing about life is, that, it moves on..]

Well, read the following lines, and think of those situations when you feel that these are absolutely true..

'Life is a bitch..for the moment you realize you've learnt how to live, it changes completely, for whenever you experience real happiness, it snatches all the reasons behind your happiness'

We feel so whenever we fail to achieve something that we wanted badly, we feel so whenever we lose someone close to us..We feel so whenever we face a tragedy in life.. As I say, nothing at all is predictable.. life is always unexpected.. A single episode can be a turning point for you, it can change your life completely..No matter what, you cannot alter what destiny has in store for you..

As they say, experience is a hard teacher for it gives the test first and the lesson later.. One feels devastated and frustrated in such situations..One forgets optimism, one forgets conscience.. Patience and acceptance are the only two things you can think of as the feasible solutions..Well, as most of us know,the one n only thing that can heal, that always heals is time.. We ought to give time time..

Now, the fact that life always goes on no matter what, does not mean that life gives you second chances..Life is a wicked bitch again..We are only given today and never promised tomorrow.. Every little thing that makes you smile is precious in its own way, every moment that makes you feel special is special in itself.. Every person who does something to make you happy, who feels worried when you are sad, deserves that love n your care from you the same way..If you wish to express your feelings to someone, do it today itself, for tomorrow, you might not get a chance to be with that loving person, to enjoy those special moments n those precious smiles..

Yes, life is long for it goes on n on n on.. for it comes up with endless experiences, countless people, uncountable tears and uncountable smiles...but then, at the same time, life is very short, because when you look back, all you can recall is those 'turning points'.. Life can be considered as a summation of all those episodes, all those changes.. Think of it once, if you're not accepting those changes, you're not accepting your life, you're merely escaping..

When one thinks of his past after a long time, these changes do not matter.. for he had been strong enough to face the tragedies, for he had cried and even his tears had dried on their

own.. for he had learnt how to live, and with the passage of time, he had moved on, just the way life always moves on.. Ultimately, its only happiness that one can think of n recall.. Happiness is recursive, one finds happiness in happy memories..over and over again..

Well, I just wrote this blog to dedicate a message to all those people, who think of running away and escaping from life, who spoil their present for what their past had been, who curse life for the sad phases..

' Life is a mixed bag.. Steal all those moments that make you happy.. Make sure you find people who truly love you, and never let them go away.. No matter how badly it tests your patience, no matter how wicked it may become at times, life does move on.. It might not give you another chances.. but it gives you new reasons to be happy, new people to meet, new experiences to enjoy'

I started this blog with the sentence, 'Life is a bitch'... I feel like putting an end to it by saying.. no matter how hard, no matter how wicked it may seem.. Accept it the way it is, make the most of it today, live it, love it, enjoy it, celebrate it and face it !!

I am in love with Prasoon Joshi's lines, "hai ye toh ik jashan, tu thirakne de kadam.. abhi saanson me hai dum, abhi chalne de sitam" .. for I do know that destiny has a role to play in all walks of life..but these lines make me feel, I can face all challenges, I can conquer all fears.. and the mere feeling makes me wanna say, "Life is... actually... beautiful"

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Nostalgia Relived - MY FOURTH SEMESTER

A semester- a five months long period of time that comes up with ups n downs,some unforgettable experiences,some beautiful memories, some new friends n above all a lot of life lessons!! Describing fourth sem in one word is not at all difficult-It was simply 'Weird'....The best way to retrospect n share is to write...so here goes my blog post on the fourth sem...the weirdest semester so far!!

Phase I DISCOVERED MY WEIRD SIDE: Well at times you actually know what is wrong n what is right,you know what you are supposed to do, but you are not able to do so.. You become upset for no reason, you start giving a great deal of importance to certain things that happen to be completely insignificant..The same happened to me during the Phase 1..Well,there were

three people who were there as great friends all the time..My cousin Nina, who knows me better than anyone else in the whole world, my classmate and friend Neha Aggarwal, who is the sweetest girl I have ever met in life.. n then my friend Shashank,well,I can actually write a comedy blog describing typical hilarious,crazy n stupid things bout him n I could write an article on how understanding,sweet n sensible he is..In short, he is as good as I am..Well, these three people have been my ultimate friends, guides and saviours not only in the phase 1 but throughout the semester..More than anything else, I am sure they must be fed up of my 'Thanks a lot' messages..

Phase II HAPPY DAYS WERE BACK:Hmmm, 4th sem had just started, things were pretty boring..I couldnt enjoy the subjects..We had C++ programming in 3 subjects God knows why,an utterly useless subject called NA and a boring CSE subject called LAN n Networking.. So I was kinda missing the core mech feeling...Auditions for Anugoonj 2010,our annual cultfest,were pathetically hopeless..Anyways we got this news that IGIT had won a cash prize of rs 1 lakh at BAJA 2010..It was a great achievement, congratulations to the BAJA team members...N then we got this great news that Euphoria would be coming for Anugoonj...4th Feb was one of the most awesome days of the entire semester.. I still remember the way Palash Sen was jumping n singing simultaneously with an incredible energy..For the first time,Kashmere Gate campus looked so beautiful that it was almost unbelievable... Above all, I enjoyed a lot wit my friends..It was just awesome.. Then we celebrated Radhika's birthday after 2 days.. We had attended hardly any classes during Phase II, thanks to the pathetic Anugoonj auditions, the fact that most of the lectures were not worth attending n a new trend called D*****n or H******i started by one n only Priyanka Bhadani (well, only IGIT MAE 08 students would get that!!)

PHASE III MINOR 1, FINALLY BACK TO STUDIES :Hmmm, the one n only thing that always happens is that when a semester starts,you promise yourself that I would definitely study this time, but you always end up wasting time..I guess I really dont need to repeat that I had not studied anything at all till 6th Feb, n we had the minors.. It was a week of sleepless nights..

PHASE IV XEBEC 2010: Well..this is worth writing a series of blogs!!Before coming to college,I used to think that organising n coordinating events is easy enough,its your participation that counts..It was in the fourth sem that I realised I was so wrong..Organising a fest..well it is actually difficult to describe how difficult it is!! I had to work along with the fachchas for publicity..There were some 'perfect nerds' among the first years who actually had 100% attendance even in an even semester which is more like 'Semester of Fests' in all engineering colleges..While talking to them, I actually discovered my own rude side, I had to like scold them all everytime, I had to be harsh..Finally, I have just one message for all those girls.. "Get a life, you losers "...but then, there were these people among the first years who helped me out alot..Kaveri,DJ,Rashi,Mohini,Shankey,Akanksha..I used to love the way Kaveri n Mohini used to send messages "Sonia Di, Ye kaam ho gaya hai, koi aur kaam ho to bata dena"... Right now, I am actually missing the way Disha Di used to tell us bout her 4th sem,the way Garima Di used to handle all those fachchas n she used to scold people around (I used to enjoy observing her)..n the way Tanvee Di had that sweet smile on all the time..Yes, I still remember every damn thing related to Xebec..our first poster,NIS,those events,the cycle rally..the fun..the one n only thing that I myself cant recall is the number of free message coupons,night talk coupons and Recharge Coupons I had purchased during Phase III

Something that I like the most about tech fests is that you get to interact with your juniors n seniors simultaneously, you feel proud to be an MAE student, you feel great when almost everyone in the campus knows you well.. you have a few fights n arguments (quite a lot of them actually),but at the end of the day, you all feel happy when your fest is a success,n you yourself get to learn alot!!! Now talking bout the actual action for the three days..

THE DAY 1 : I had to coordinate an event, it was designing on pro e, the event was pretty good, but I couldnt take part in some other events :( .. Everything went on smoothly..the green talks were good, the seminars were good again..but I was fed up of the Xebec vs Impulse thing, n then the USCT idiots started interfering in our announcements..It was shocking to see the way they behaved..Xebec actually taught me that there are certain people who will always be going for

politics, unfair means, anything at all while targetting for being better than the others... If you really want to succede,aim for self improvement!

THE DAY 2: It was way way better than day 1.. I was there at the campus at 8 o clock.. the dumbest thing on my part was that I wore 2" heels on the day when we were supposed to do so much of work..I took part in many events..Each and every event was really amazing, day 2 came up with a hell lot of fun..Nothing else can be more interesting than cryptography..code breaking

rocks..but I felt like killing USCT guys,I was late for crypto just because of a GD that was cancelled later on.. both Sanshlation n the USIT fest( m really not able to recall the name) were very poorly organised,Xebec n Impulse were much better..(IGIT rocks!)

The tech events were great on DAY 2,Robotics...simply awesome..n then we finally had the Treasure Hunt, I wasnt officially a part of the team,but I really wanted to be a part of the fun...those clues,those riddles,those puzzles n the ultimate tasks n challenges...I felt as if we were all Roadies..for the first n last time in life,I ran carrying a 2" heel,had blisters n cuts on my feet,Neha was injured...I enjoyed the way Richa fought with the USIT guys,Priyanka encouraged all of us,n not to forget Tanya's ultimate energy n enthusiasm..I learnt that you tend to enjoy things better when you take part just for fun and not for a certi or a cash prize..

THE DAY 3: NIS was conducted really well..Another great event..Day 3 had real technical events, I enjoyed a lot! I really wanted to take part in an event called 'Green Junkyard', but all my friends were busy, I finally took part with two guys called Manu and Sugeet, they were perfect strangers to me..but we did a great job as a team n won the first prize..Manu

actually made a perfect conveyer belt out of complete chunk within just 10 minutes..I enjoyed every bit of it.. the way Sugeet suggested n number of names for our team, the way the coordinators were fed up of them.. those high fives..the way everyone thought I knew these people well although I had met them just half an hour back..n then I realized that Sugeet is as crazy as I am, crazier than me for that matter..A guy who is fond of writing, extremely intelligent, much more talkative than me with an amazing style of talking, an agnostic, a foodie..I was like shocked to notice so many similarities with a person..Junkyard was the most enjoyable part of the fest for me..One more thing, would love to be the Non-Tech head for Xebec 2011..

PHASE V: GOD! THAT WEEK: Right after Xebec was over,we had the practicals..Well practicals at this university dont really impart any practical knowledge to you, they are just for the sake of scoring marks n flaunting your cheating skills..We were fed up of completing those files n assignments and on top of that our college authorities had decided to take up internal

viva twice for no reason..On top of that, my classmates used to think that I am better than everyone else during vivas..I know that most of my classmates are more intelligent than me, its just that I love vivas..Most of them keep thinking about the marks they'll score,n I simply enjoy Vivas..

It was during this week that our third sem result was out,most of us had a pretty good result..I was more than just happy, finally hard work paid off.. We hugged each other,some people were actually jumping..It was perhaps the best day of the whole semester..

N then, this week came up with the BAJA 2011 debate, cycle... no no car.. official BAJA interviews.. no its Srijna's team.. no no its something else altogether.. It was something that spoiled the atmosphere of our class badly... I have just one opinion... " I dont have a right to say decide was right n who was wrong,I dont care about what others think n say but I truly respect Srijna's efforts,her fighting spirit,her determination, for I could have never done whatever she is doing.."

PHASE VI: BACK TO MY CRAZINESS : This was the best phase...Almost everyone had realised that classes were worthless in this sem,the topper of our class, Isha, had started initiating mass bunks. I used to be a permanent first bencher in 3rd sem,but I was actually a last bencher as well as late comer throughout this sem.. I used to either sleep or read novels in the MM class..Something that I still cant believe is that I did a few girlie things too..he he..n then,I clicked pics of the campus animals,I love those cute puppies n monkeys..I learned to cook..I did a lot of things that I avoid doing otherwise..Well,everyone knows that I really love this Kash Gate Campus,in spite of the fact that the infrastructure sucks.. I love this place because of the people here..Yes, it feels great when you get along well with everyone around, I enjoy the way my juniors like Kaveri,Prerna,Nikita,Anshika, Mohini,Shankey talk to me n ask for advices.. I wouldnt have got addicted to bunking classes n roaming around the campus without that Chahal-Pahal..I wouldnt have enjoyed dancing in the GCR,having junk food at Handa without my friends..the way the USIT n USCT guys fight with you, the way you get to learn a lot when you go for GDs along with the MBA n Law guys..You get a chance to interact with people from every kinda field..Two years are over, n I still dont feel that I am studying in a girls college..Everyone wants USS n IGIT to be together, m really very happy USS people are not going to Dwarka in the next sem :-)

PHASE VII: EXAMS,GUILT,SOME TOUGH TIMES,GUILT N EXAMS AGAIN: Throughout this semester, I behaved like an immature and irresponsible person, I gave importance to some insignificant things, I ignored some great people and bothered a lot about those who used to take me for granted.. The second minors were over.. n I was occupied with the feeling of guilt( nothing can be worse than it).. I felt guilty for not being a sincere student, for not being a good daughter, for not living up to my own expectations, for taking certain things lightly and casually.. Thanks to Radhika, for the way she always inspires me to study hard.. She is not only a sincere student but also a sincere human being..

It was when the final practicals were about to start I took a tough decision, a difficult step but absolutely correct on my part..I left some things behind n moved on..I was back to myself n I knew that I would have to work really hard to cover up for everything...

Then we had those external practicals..As always, I loved the vivas.. Would love to quote Surbhi's words.. 'Bhatia, tune kabhi socha hai agar bluetooth jaisi technology na hoti to hum practicals me pass kaise hote yar'...

The week before the majors..Being in IP University, you get used to that routine of exams daily..but I had to prepare for that hatable subject called ES along with the rest of the subjects..Things were not that easy..Neha was suffering from typhoid, yet she was confident enough, her attitude motivated me a lot.. Finally the majors started.. Just like everything else, the exams were weird too.. out of syllabus, patterns changed, what not.. but I found all that funny (I myself dont know why..)

A FEW THINGS THAT I LEARNT AND REALIZED

• The most lovable friends are those who love you the way you are and are always there for you..There are some people who take you for granted no matter how much you care for them, all those so called friends who dont respect you, are simply not worth you..
• Your good friends might be those who admire you, but your best friends are the ones who say, "Tu pagal hai, tera kuch nahi ho sakta junglee", thanks to Lattu, for the way she used to scold me for taking my tomboyish nature as an excuse for being lazy.. Thanks to Prerna, for the lovely lecture when I felt guilty for no reason.. and to Rads to give me constant reminders to study properly..
• I was tired of hearing, "Sonia, you must be a writer, you could be a great RJ, not able to understand why you chose engineering as a profession"... Well, here goes the story.. I had this craze for astrophysics and maths when I was at school, I always wanted to be an engineer..At the same time,I love writing,I love expressing myself, but then I am just a beginner and I write just for fun.. I love my branch, MAE rocks, its just that I am fed up of the system here..I started thinking that the fact that I am interested in way too many things simultaneously, the way my mind is equally inclined towards both technical and non technical things.. is not good for me, but I was wrong, I was underestimating myself,now I am confident that whatever I go for in future, I'll be good at it, n come what may, I wont ever stop writing blogs, singing and talking like an RJ, n doing all such crazy things..
• People of my age give a hell lot of importance to their crushes and so called relationships, well of course you cant control your feelings for the person you like,there is nothing wrong in loving a person truly and doing anything at all just to see him/her smile.. But often, we forget the golden rule, 'No one,absolutely no one, is above your happiness'..You cant force someone to care for you just because you care for him,but yes, you can always expect the person to respect you..Accept it and move on, move on without any expectations, without any regrets..How can you regret anything that ever made you smile..Leave that phase behind and cherish those beautiful moments..
• Truth is stranger than fiction..You face certain weird and tough phases, when you have to accept things the way they are..Life might have something else in store for you and it will offer it to you in its own unpredictable ways..Sometimes, its better not to try,it actually becomes important to let certain things go, to leave them behind..
• Human mind has that tendency to over think, introspect and day dream way too much, but its a fact the best of the things come to you when you least expect them, my next blog "Unexpected Expectations"... Coming soon.

P.S.

1. A note on Facebook, Award Ceremony 2010, coming soon..
2. ONLY FOR MY CLASSMTES.. totally illegal,irrelevant and inappropriate for outsiders... Well,I am planning to gift a FOOTBALL to Litsi, an APPLE i-pod to Neha, a FAIRYtale book to Sakshi, a Line FOLLOWER robot to Apoorvi, a STRIPES shirt to Richa and Radhika..and then, I admit, I enjoyed every bit of D****** and H******* in this sem..

This blog is dedicated to the two most lovable people in the whole world, My Parents.. a promise to myself, one day I will definitely make them feel proud..

Next Blog Soon

Sonia Bhatia

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Life Is Better Than Your Dreams

It was a beautiful Monday morning..
rather it was just another boring Monday morning..
but something beautiful was about to happen..
something special was about to happen..

It was just an intuition..
maybe an expectation..
purely my imagination...
or just a hallucination..

I really dont know..
perhaps the only thing I know..
is that..
I just let it flow..
coz I wanted it to flow..

I saw 'someone'..
Someone sitting next to me,
Someone simply looking at me..
Someone smiling at me..

I heard the same person,
talking to me continuously..
talking about random stuff foolishly..
he was sayin what I wanted him to say..
n those silly talks kinda made my day..

I looked amazing coz I smiled..
I looked cute when I laughed..
I looked even prettier when I smiled at him,
I looked happier when I looked at him,

We started walking,walking together..

Walking on the beach,hand in hand..

Talking to each other,laughing together,

looking at our footsteps on the wet sand..

All of a sudden..

The Monday morning came to an end..

Though it never even had a beginning..

Probably I didn't even realize

n hence I jus smiled..

I just got to know it wasn't true..

but I smiled..

I smiled at myself..

I reminded myself..

Reminded that it might never be true..

still I smiled..

I had enjoyed it totally..

had loved it completely..

I was awake..

yet I was dreaming..

for heaven's sake..

I asked myself..

what was i doing?

Day dreaming.. a weird habit,

well..actually not even a habit..

its something that just happens..

just like love,

its something that just happens..

Its not only about fantasies n ambitions..

not only about hopes n aspirations..

bout retrospection n introspection..

Its much more..way beyond one can even imagine..

I am happy even when I know it isnt true..

I am not sad even when I know it would never be true..

While I day dream,

I really dont hope all that I imagine is real..

I actually believe that its undoubtedly real..

I just happen to enjoy the feeling..

the experience of the beautiful monday morning..

the joy of looking at someone n smiling..

30 minutes pass...

or 45 minutes pass..

n then, I realize m back to the real world..

m neither disappointed not sad..

neither a weirdo nor mad,

I am just a day dreamer..

like everyone else,

even I am a day dreamer..

Its something that makes me smile..

n makes me realize..

happiness is not about what you want..

n getting the same back..

happiness is something within you,

somewhere within you..

You can waste your time waiting for such Monday mornings..

Or you can enjoy living each moment,being happy each morning..

Choice is yours..

The beauty of life is that..

It just goes on..

It goes on come what may..

You accept it as it comes to you..

N everyday will be a beautiful day..

Life Is better than your dreams..

Life is beautiful..

Yes, It really is..

[ Latest quote by me, " The Kelvin Plank Statement of Second Law of thermodynamics is not applicable in real life, because the 'energy' required to forgive n accept, does an awesome work for you.."

The fourth semester is really really weird, I feel like writing a blog , after every fifteen days, describing whatever I had experienced.. 4 phases of the 4th sem are over, the 5th one is going on..The blog on the fourth sem will be the longest post on this blog ever..

One more thing, all readers are requested not to take this as a romantic poem, the last three stanzas are the most important ones..

]

Sonia Bhatia

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Dil Khush Jahaan.... Teri To Manzil Hai Wahin

[ Sometimes you get to discover your own weird side, maybe once in six months...n when this crazy side comes up, even if you are a person with great positive attitude, you become upset for no reason.. even if you have an infinite capacity to speak.. you prefer to be silent...even if you are a very sensible person, you act like a perfect dumbo...Yes, the biggest idiot and the ultimate genius both are within 'you'..

I used to think that the list of mysterious things was limited to Life After Death, Existence of God, Love n relationships only.. But a few days back, I realized that our mind, or maybe our sub conscious mind is really mysterious too.. ]

Wo din kuch khaas tha,

kuch bura bhi tha,

par kuch sikha gaya wo din

kuch samjha gaya tha wo din..

mood nahi tha music sunne ka,

na kuch khaane peene ka,

na koi book padhne ka,

na kisi se baat karne ka..

sab khaali khaali tha,

kuch adhoora sa tha,

koi kami thi shayad,

ya kisi ki kami thi shayad..

phir messages kiye ek friend ko,

ek ghanta pareshan kiya usko,

khud ko hi nahi pata tha kuch,

phir bhi bak diya dimag me tha jo kuch..

usse baat karke hua ye ehsaas,

k uske jaise dost hi hote hain khaas,

apni khushi se zyada kisi ki parvaah mat karo,

jo tumhari parvaah kare use kabhi ignore mat karo,,

jo tumhe ignore kare uske baare mei bother mat karo,

kuch achchha lagne laga,

halka halka types lagne laga,

dost ne bola

"dont wish so much for one particular person

no one, absolutely no one is above your own happiness.."

ye to main pehle se jaanti thi,

sabko bolti bhi rehti thi,

phir pata nahi kyun bhool gayi thi....

main apne aap pe hairan thi,

apni weirdness pe hairan thi..

hasi aa rahi thi khud pe,

hasi aa rahi thi apni dumbness pe..

kabhi kabhi dimag saala hil jata hai,

kuch samajh mei nahi aata hai..

funde dene mei chahe koi expert hi kyun na ho,

free advice k liye wo bhi tarasne lag jata hai..

ultimately ek nahi,

kai lesson mile,

kuch us dost se,

to kuch khud se..

realise hua k main kitni lucky hoon,

thodi si insane bhi hoon..

but at the end of the day,

i realised come what may,

one should never let that smile go away..

well socha nahi tha pura blog likh dalungi,,

likhte likhte prasoon joshi ki lines bhi likh dalungi

'tu dhoop hai chham se bikhar,

tu hai nadi o bekhabar!

beh chal kahin, ud chal kahin,

dil khush jahaan teri to manzil hai wahin'

This blog post is dedicated to

Some really close friends : They know the blog is all about them ;)

Myself : Well even I am a great friend .. yes, my friends can always count on me n they are always welcome for my 'funde n free advices' (they work) ;) I know zyada tareef ho gayi, but kabhi kabhi immodesty bhi zaruri hoti hai

[ This blog post was written within just 25 minutes... written without any planning n without any motive.. in a totally casual style.. I just hope people would be able to relate to it.

One more thing.. Two thieves.. will fall in love.. will dig their own graves.. check out Ishqiya.. I told you Vishal Bhardwaj had himself asked me to promote it through my blogs..]

Sonia Bhatia

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